Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Freddie Gibbs and Tech N9ne in Los Angeles

Freddie Gibbs and Tech N9ne in Los Angeles: With Some Distractions
by Armando Ortiz


I came across Freddie Gibbs while looking at something related to Madlib. I am not sure what it was but it was a track from their new album Pinata that opened the doors to Gibbs’ other work. I soon found other albums that were pretty good, Cold Day in Hell and ESGN- Evil Seeds Grow Naturally.  I found myself listening to his albums and mix tapes over and over again for the next few weeks. I missed a chance to check him out at the Echoplex where both Madlib and Gibbs would be performing, so when I saw that he would be touring with Tech N9ne's Independent Grind Tour, and that he would be passing through again in June the ticket was bought no questions asked. The day finally arrived and I had arranged with a buddy from work to park my car in a place I thought was safe, but on second thought the area is quite safe and it’s better to just pay for parking.
 
I parked the car in a private residential building thinking it was the most convenient thing to do. The security guard claimed to not know the person who was letting me park inside, but then he remembered that my friend had mentioned to him that a friend would be stopping bye. I parked the car and began to prepare some things. I ended up spending too much time in the car and spilled water and other contents onto my legs and on the floor of the car to make matters worse the security guard came knocked on my window and hurried me up.

After talking on the phone with my brother, I walked to the venue down Holloway, but I saw a 7-11, so after crossing La Cienega Blvd went inside to get some snacks- a Big Bite dog, a bag of kettle chips, and soda water. I walked out and headed to the venue, but at a distance there was a tattoo shop, The Honorable Society, where I once sold art books to its artists and whose owner, Marco Cerretelli, I knew. I once again took a detour and headed towards the shop. After entering, and asking to talk to Marco, I got to see the lay out of the shop which was akin to a Victorian Era living room/ bazaar. He was not there, so small talk with the guy that was working there ensued, but didn’t last more than five minutes.


I stepped out of the shop and continued on my way to the show, crossing the street and climbing Olive Dr., which leads you up a hill and to The House of Blues. But by the time I got there, I’d already spent an hour walking and talking with people. Nearing the venue about 5 guys walked past bye in a row exiting the theater, walking to the parking lot, where after some seconds a fight began. Freddie Gibbs was already half way through his show by the time I was inside, and managed to hear three songs one of which was from his recent collaboration album with Madlib, Pinata. After his performance Tech N9ne began his set. The gathering was amazing, and the fans for Tech N9ne were decked out in red. He definitively has a loyal following and getting to watch him perform was a very unique and memorable experience, though not as long lasting as missing more than half of Freddie Gibbs’ performance.



Monday, August 18, 2014

Sacred Bird: A Journey

Sacred Bird

by Armando Ortiz


The sound of god

engulfs everything;

it's a humming pulse

that flows inside veins.


It becomes

a smoky cloud

of buzzing wasps

found in the middle

of oriental deserts,


where a million red robed monks

blow the horns of heaven,

announcing the induction

to the ceremony of time.


Liquid mirages as real

As Himalayan rocks-

cleaver strikes flesh-

starving vultures

passing judgment

on one’s life.


Flying creatures-

devouring carrion

that die randomly

and violently

like a pair of dice,

-salivate for those

on fields of grey grass.

  

With penetrating eyes

they see through smoky clouds,

and find secrets kept from others,

while soaring, and searching

for the last goodbye,

waiting for the first cry.


Listening for the bullet

of the first shot,

and finding the first

who got got.


Perched

on that aged branch-

Ancient vulture,

sacred thunderbird-

reveal yourself

to us tonight.


How do you really look?

What face do you put

when you read our misdeeds?


Do you saver to eat

or cry a goodnight

-for this lost soul

wandering the night?


Are you the peregrine falcon,

searching for its prey,

to take back

to the holy house of prayer?


To the place

where tired pilgrims

cast their wares onto

the burning incense.


Do you sit

on a throne of ivory,

inside a building

that symbolizes love?


Are the melodies

coming from within

of women laughing of joy

or are they wailing goodbye?


Do you lift your hand and welcome-

in the towers of Heaven Mountains

where all souls enter-

or point to that dreaded direction?


Is it just decomposition

and regeneration?

a cycle that is

born when one dies?

Or a figment of imagination

With downcast eyes?



Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Angelique: Short Piece


Angelique

by Armando Ortiz


Onyx and diamonds in the sky,

and we see each other with frozen eyes.


An immense distance separates us from our smiles,

but with each paused breath we shorten those miles.


You are like a porcelain doll surrounded by crystal glass,

and I am a weathered bronze marker listing events of times passed.


We are timeless pieces suspended

in the eroding moment of now.


Nothing more than traveling amulets

to the gods who cross caravan orbits,

and worship oracles given by the marble fountains.


Glass melts with time,

and metal oxidizes,

and we get lost in the labyrinth

of our smiles.


Our gaze lasts a lifetime

and we get lost

in the desires of ourselves.


Your eyes

become a collection of stares,

and an exchanged thank you.


They become

the pupils of a traveled

Tibetan guide,

and of the foreign student

who wanted to look

into these coffee eyes.


We wander this earth searching

but we might have already found

what is before our eyes.


Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Date with her


Date with her

by Armando Ortiz


Let me take you on a date,

where you wear your shortest and lightest dress,

so the sun may caress those legs,

and make people look our way.


Let me take you to Thai town,

where the food is fresh and authentic.

There we can stroll down Hollywood Blvd,

so foreign crowds may see

me walking with a queen bee.


Let my mind experience this wish,

to fulfill its waiting desire

of words from within that showers you

with honey drops of bliss.


Let’s float above the stars,

and walk on clouds in heaven,

tracing the sun’s trajectory,

while driving west on Sunset’s way.

  

Let’s reach that place

where everything enters

a whirlpool of rays and ocean waves,

that make us sink onto the sand

to a night of ever expanding dreams.


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Words of Desire: Prose

Words of Desire

by Armando Ortiz


The same words of desire that make us aware of colors torture our minds.

Descriptions of beauty carry messages of blemish.

Brutality brings with it tenderness of love.

Salvation is for the perfect, and meek.

The great deed is in sin, and redemption is found inside inequity.

With art there is perfection, and with peace there is destruction.


With sounds I explain this world.

In a frenzy you stamp your feet,

like the old days when our grandmothers danced for rain.

You undress yourself with the naked night and disappear into the air.

Shape shifting sunset fox is your spirit.

The rattlesnake of your breath and that heavenly rhythm touches what I see.

Words don’t penetrate closed minds,

but you painted these memories with colors.

Hallucinations of the words that paint my mind with your image drive me crazy.


Friday, August 1, 2014

Sleep: Short Piece


Sleep

By Armando Ortiz


She is a seductive traitor,

who covers you with her dark veil-

many have succumbed

to the tiredness that she brings.


But the needs of life launch us toward

that direction of mindless labor,

trying to make an extra buck, punch in the extra hour

to pay the bill that landed on the mailbox yesterday.


Sometimes we are convinced that she is with us,

fighting daylight and fighting tiredness-

our tag team partner when we want to make that extra buck

to build something better on the limited options available.


She whispers lies into your ear,

saying, “we are almost there.”

Needing money, we become deaf and blind

only to hit the concrete curve or a brick wall .


But her bite is worse than the viper’s

and more dangerous than the boa constrictor,

before you know it, you blink and snooze,

and betrayed- you lose


Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Godzilla Clouds: Sketch


Godzilla Clouds

by Armando Ortiz


Godzilla clouds walk the sky,

And you become that musical note.

The ring- a resonating chime

That brings focus to the now.

Your sunset auras have me scrambling,

And the flow over takes us.

“Say something to her eyes.”


Monday, July 21, 2014

Desolation Road: Betsy and Bella


Betsy and Bella
By Armando Ortiz
“Betsy, it’s time to say your prayers and go to sleep,” said Bella, who’d been in the kitchen washing a stack of dirty dishes that had piled up the last few days. Betsy was in the living room reading, directly under a light that emanated from the ceiling. She was engrossed with a Curious George book. Bella walked towards her, wiping her hands with a towel. Her smooth tanned arms shone under the light. Their niche was directly across the light. Betsy was always under the watchful eye of her mom and the Virgin of Guadalupe. They knelt before her and prayed. The image of St Christopher was on the foreground of the Virgin Mary, to the right. Another little statuette was on the left side, that of St Jude. In between these was a candle, a little flower vase and a plaster cast image of Jesus Christ. The Virgin’s eyes always caught Betsy’s attention, since it seemed to be looking down at her, with ancient Buddha eyes, had an aura of love and serenity. They always followed the routine right before going to sleep. Her mom mostly did the talking. She begged the Virgensita, the beloved virgin, for patience and strength, thanked her for life and having food that day. Following this brief ceremony Bella would tuck Betsy in her own small Hello Kitty bed and kiss her goodnight.
            She was always in prayer, a relentless woman of prayer, and earnestly felt that the Virgin was taking care of them. The same part of the couch where her daughter had been studying was now being used by her. Now it was Bella that was directly across from the image of the Lady of Mercy. Now it was her turn to be under those watchful eyes and commence the two hour study session. She was an autodidact, but simply gave thanks to the heavens above and always brought flowers she’d cut on the way back home from work; yellow daisies, red roses and occasionally magenta baby bottle scrubbers. Bella would stay up a few hours past bed time, studying and reviewing for the Dental Assistant course that she was taking at the local vocational school.
            Bella worked as a housekeeper at one of the old hotels in downtown Los Angeles. She’d been given the job after a neighbor who’d worked there for 15 years had finally found a man and married. The newlywed couple decided to head north and start a new life somewhere in Salem, Oregon. Bella gave thanks to the Virgin for the job, and used some of the money from that first pay check to buy a bouquet of roses, and went to the church she attended and placed them on the altar.
            Life was certainly not easy, especially housekeeping. She had to clean thirteen rooms in eight hours. She had some help, but it was always frowned upon to call for assistance. Towards the end of the day her back ached from all the bending, leaning and pulling.. As soon as she clocked out, the bus would take her back home, where she would pick up her daughter from the next door neighbor, who watched over Betsy for two hours after school. The pain and tiredness was relentless, but she always thanked people and thanked the image that watched over them. Betsy would have her homework done by the time she was picked up, but she knew that her mom expected nothing but reading and writing at the house. Though it was routine, she found it easy to write in her diary and write on what she’d done that day or write down her dreams and the things that she wanted. She knew that her mom also had a diary, because sometimes her mom would sit on the kitchenette table and write down her own thoughts, her own hopes in a leather bound diary that she’d picked up while passing through Mexico.
Her family wasn’t particularly religious, occasionally going to Sunday mass to pray and every so often go to confession. Nevertheless, for Bella, her trip through Mexico made her a believer. Her hazel eyes had seen people walking on their knees, and crawling towards sanctuaries where the Virgin was housed. Every house that gave shelter and a plate of food had a little sanctuary that honored the Mother of Jesus. The people she crossed paths with gave her a deep impression, helping her along and showing extreme generosity in opening their homes. A sense of spiritual debt to them and to the image of the Eternal Grandmother would weigh on her for a very long time.
When Betsy thought about her mom, she imagined her writing notes to people, a habit that had been acquired by her as well. She’d sneak notes for her teacher to read after lunch, give friends notes of friendship or make drawings, like two kids playing handball. The person who got the onslaught of notes wasn’t her mom though; instead it was the neighbor Margarita, whose refrigerator was riddled with notes that Bella had given her making it look like a multi-colored bird that’d lived ages ago.
            When they weren’t studying they’d be praying, constantly petitioning the Virgin for grace. If it was not thanking something and looking up to heaven, Betsy found that her mom, practically thanked all kinds of people, all the time. Margarita, the neighbor that watched over her, the vato that stood outside the building all day with his hands in his pocket, shaking hands with strangers all day, and the lady that sold tamales in the morning. As if the powers that be had set everything up so that she would be grateful for her lot in life. In the weekends they went to a vocational school for four hours. Betsy would take her journal or a coloring book and get lost in her imagination. Her mom on the other hand, sat, took notes, turned in assignments, and asked the instructor a multitude of questions. Mr. Ofoma knew she was a single mother working to get bye, so he’d given her permission to have her daughter in the class. Betsy just sat there working on binders that contained her drawings. At times she’d just sit there and listen to Mr. Ofoma’s lecture. He, along with the other instructors saw that Bella was different. She had gumption. She had the heart and commitment of a marathon athlete. She wouldn’t stop, instead just kept going. At bed time Bella would think of her parents back home. She wondered how they were doing. She’d left her home at sixteen and had taken the trip north a few years back. They would receive money from her at least once every two months.

-Break-

Her brother, Santos, had recently arrived. He’d taken the train over here and spent a few months wandering around to get to the US. She found it odd that along the way he’d been stranded by several coyotes. Usually a coyote, a human trafficker, committed himself to taking the person the whole trip till they reached a destination where a known business associate would complete the adventure for them. His journey had been different though, because after he managed to get to Guadalajara, he apparently got stranded, and turned up in Mexico DF a few months later. All along he’d call his loving sister and beg for money. Bella didn’t have much, but would figure things out, like find a cleaning gig in West Los Angeles or help clean the Laundromat that was two blocks away from her house on 3rd street. Every ounce of sweat that came out of that 5 foot figure was worth more than gold to her, since it was family that was being helped.
For Santos, it seemed that Bella had made it in the U.S., since every time he found himself in a bind he’d just dial the numbers and in a few days money filled both pockets. Santos was escaping Honduras. His parents thought he’d moved out and had been working at a tobacco company, which he had for a while, but he’d really started to gamble, drink and hang out with the wrong crowd. Circumstances made it necessary for him to relocate somewhere far, as soon as possible, hence his abrupt decision to head north. It seemed that kind eyes were looking after him from above.  
            When Santos arrived in LA he was sent to MacArthur Park to get his papers in order. Any person who had recently crossed the border and need a fake identification card or green card went to the park to get them- a bazar of illegal activities. He’d been walking north along Alvarado Blvd. when suddenly he saw his elementary school friend, Jose, who was standing by the corner of the Pharmacia Del Pueblo. He looked different, but his facial features were distinguishable. He wasn’t wearing shorts or was barefoot. Instead Nike Cortez protected those running feet, and for some reason his hair was slicked back, like a cow lick. His brown slacks were ironed clean as if a black pin stripe ran along the front and back of his legs.
“Jose, is that you? It’s me Santos from La Colonia Diego Garcia. We used to play ball.” Jose at first gave him a dirty look, which turned into astonishment, which then transformed into familiarity.
“Santos, wassup foo, wachu doin around here?”
“You know, work,” replied Santos.
 Occasionally going to buy toiletries at El Piojito made Betsy familiar with the area, but she never really stuck around the area since she was too busy with work. She had given Santos a small map that she drew on a piece of paper. He knew he was near. Only a few more blocks to go before reaching the place his sister said reliable green cards were sold. He showed the sketch to Jose telling him he was sent to that location. Jose looked at the paper and spat on the ground and his face had suddenly became more wrinkled and his cold stare returned.
“Who the fuck sent you there, ese?,” inquired Jose, with a hard nod to the skies while keeping eye contact.
“My sister said that’s where she got her papers,” replied Santos.
 “Well your sister is wrong ese. No seas bayunco, si tienes pedo ponte listo cabron” Jose sounded angry.
Calmado, calmado,” said Santos slightly raising his arms and showing Jose his palms. “Mira loco, I just got here and all I am trying to do is get my papers to get a job. If you can help me with that then I’ll be grateful.”
“How much you got?,” he was asked.
 “Pues, this is what my sister gave me. She said I could get a mica,” he replied.
 “Aver,” there was a moment of pause before his voice broke through the sound of passing cars, “esos cabrones te estan robaaando. I sell papers much cheaper than that, vente conmigo,” he swung his arm forward signaling Santos to follow him. Like a blind man following another blind man, he followed.

-Break-

            Santos returned home in the evening and was unusually chatty, he kept talking about all sorts of things. Bella already had dinner cooked for the three of them. It had been a long time since he’d had yucca frita with chicharon, fried cassava with fried pork, a common staple back in many Central American countries, and this for him was a reminder that now he was with family. He ate his dinner and kept talking about his adventure earlier that day. Bella ate her food and listened to everything he was sharing. She found it odd that he just kept talking and talking about how good the food was, but only once mentioned getting his papers.
Y la mica?,”she finally interjected.
He paused for a moment and pulled out his green card. He was no longer Santos, instead he was Arnoldo Toledo.

            Every morning everyone seemed to wake up after Bella took a shower, soon afterward Betsy would go into the shower, where mom would scrub her down. Then it was Santos, who always woke up last. He seemed to relish the extra hour from when Bella awoke. He knew he’d have to cook his own breakfast. He’d been in LA two weeks and had yet to find a job. He’d tell Bella that he was going out and meeting with old friends who worked in factories, hotels and other odd places. Once he was outside, he’d just disappear and merge with the crowds of people and the mid-day traffic, everything being flooded by that bright Southern California light, and come back home late in the evenings.


Sunday, July 20, 2014

Hummingbird: No. 4


Hummingbirds: No. 4

By Armando Ortiz

Feathers of a million dead hummingbirds,

Cover the body of the young soldier,

Who dies for honor and glory.


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Refugee


Refugee

By Armando Ortiz


I'm a refuge-

Here without permission.

Paperless wanderer

On a journey to peace-

A Mormon pilgrim

Searching for that land of plenty.


This peregrine existence

Pushes me to take drastic measures.

So I paraphrase freedom as arduous wage labor,

Becoming a modern slave without shackles,

Building those vacation castles

And cozy winter palaces.


Laws make us retreat into the underground pageant,

Where tweaked freaks walk the streets and blood feuds exist.

Into a panopticon of violence and filthy pleasure seekers.

We even patrol the perimeters of your holy grounds,

And are pushed away when we play in front of your gates.


We are weather beaten and dark like the earth,

And welcomed with chants of, “go home, wetback.”

You buy off politicians that turn our healthcare system into a place for penitence,

And our forms of government are brought to its knees by your weapons,

Your military aid and your democracy.


They root us out of coastal villages and mountain towns,

Pushing us away with Mack trucks that replace the swings of our youth

With vacation villas and wilderness retreats,

And sit back on their leather recliner

Sipping gourmet coffee from our highlands,

Watching their banana republic exports fly to the sky.

And we are forced to carve out our space in the bottoms. 


Friday, July 11, 2014

Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Eighteen): Dropped



Part 18: Dropped

By Armando Ortiz

It was a new truck. White or yellow, I can’t remember, but it was dropped. No more than a foot above the ground. No music was bumping when it pulled up. But they pulled out some things that pumped hard and fast and made things hot. They were unknowns, but most likely were thugs fighting for turf or simply rivals taking revenge.

We were playing with an inflatable beach ball. It was multi-colored; red, white, and yellow. We were in the front lawn of that duplex. But when that Japanese truck pulled up and stopped- everything paused. It might have been the screeches of the black tire rubbing against the asphalt, grinding to a halt that made us turn and watch the momentary drama unfold. The culprits inside pulled out a long black metal thing whose bullets would be piercing the terracotta wall of the Laundromat opposite to our place. The man, who held the machine, had long puffy black hair and fed the bullets on the left side with his left hand. He looked like a crazy head banger going nuts to the sound of Slayer. In fact the dude looked like he was a black haired version of Hanneman holding that piece that rattled on his hands like a guitar. Bullets were literally raining on the guys hanging out in the parking lot- talk about clouds over one’s shoulder.

The place and everything around us seemed to be on pause or at least to be moving in slow motion. The perpetrator aimed his weapon at two guys that were chatting away outside of their 70s Celica. Once they heard the cracking of the metal and the origins of the fire they dropped to the ground. Their bodies touch the dark ground. One of them reached inside the car pulling out a revolver, but did not shoot, from where he was he saw the color of the truck. Whose driver, by that time had stepped on the gas and disappeared north on Berendo and merging with the lights on Olympic that took them somewhere far, maybe to the beach. The apparent targets got into their car and attempted to trail behind. 

I heard my mom call my name. But we were intrigued, but did not dare cross the street to the other side and look around at the damage that had been caused. A line of bullet holes were left behind as raw evidence to what had happened. One of our neighbors, the oldest of the bunch, found a shell casing. It looked like it might have been a short fat lead pencil from a long time ago, but no, it had held a bullet and now we could use the casings as a more sophisticated form of whistle.