(All art work was done by Andy Zamora, feel free to contact him via facebook)
This blog allows me to talk about my interests in travel, the outdoors, music, art, writing and literature; all of which have altered my views of this small world.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Andy Zamora: Artists in Los Angeles
(All art work was done by Andy Zamora, feel free to contact him via facebook)
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Families: Poem
Families
By Armando Ortiz
Families are wild flowers.
nameless
is the creek
where baptized words
float away.
Lineage,
there is none,
just endless
rebirth.
Stories lost
in the sound of water.
there isn’t
much to say.
Daily,
they bud
and wither
living
just a miracle.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Hummingbird No.2: A Poem
Hummingbird No. 2
by Armando Ortiz
Let the bullets of war
become shooting hummingbirds
that pierce armors of fear and
pollinate the hearts with courage
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Waiting: A Poem
Waiting
by Armando Ortiz
I wait for you to return to this side where the earth is young,
Laying here marking off the days that fall like dead leaves,
And hoping to see the blossom of your rose again.
The rocks underwater kept silent the day I caressed your skin.
and the trees around us became a collective yakshi that saw it all.
In our mischief we didn’t hold back, and lost ourselves in revelry.
That afternoon a part of me entered your sacred sanctuary.
The barn swallows living under the concrete bridge,
Are witnesses to the memories that flow down river
And accomplices to what happened that day.
Let’s be the holiness of the first birth, and the miracle of the moment.
Let me enter, and experience the rebirth of what I was before.
The sun rises as the flowers of life open, slowly moving across the earth.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Seven): Splitting of Electrons
Part 7: Splitting of Electrons
By Armando Ortiz
All you get is the splitting of electrons. That is what she said after I explained to her what it is that I was seeing and feeling. I had been tripping pretty hard that day and the world that existed outside of myself came in to focus. I had been aware of the world that I live in and the daily transactions that take place with one another. However, this particular day it all changed. I could see far into the horizon and spot the different layers of movement and people that were going hither and thither. From a distance I could see people pass by and at times saw the tops of their cars, and at other times people I looked at the people on platforms just enjoying the whole view of the event. I was at the center of all the chaos taking place. Everything was happening before me and around me, and I realized that all that was outside of myself was a sort of organized chaos, but what about myself, my mind, my being? I was the center and the center was a mess. My thoughts also represented a type of chaos. Chaos that was disorganized or organized? But what of my thoughts and the world at large? What was after all that? What was there between my thoughts and the rest of the internal chaos? She’d been listening to me talk, and at times looked around and spotted random decorated bicycles.
“Well, after that all you have is the splitting of electrons,” giving a smile after her reply.
“Hahahaha…” that really shocked me, but it made sense, because at the molecular level there were electrons splitting and connecting to other things.
“What we all are is mostly space and water, even though we don’t perceive that reality,” she said, “It truly is a miracle that we just don’t dissolve into nothingness.”
“What is that thing that keeps it all running? God? A spirit? An electrical charge? Air pressure?,” I asked with a sense of desperation. “Is nature outside of this chaos? Is nature chaos by nature? Does this mean that our bodies are of nature, but we turn around and look at it in a weird way of chaos.”
Chaos……living in the city one experiences organized chaos, but in nature, one sees the multiplicity of nature’s wonders, an organization that seems to have equilibrium and symbiosis. We see the different animals, the trees, the ocean, the insects, the mammals, the birds, the snakes, and the grounds the slither on. There is so much more, so much of what we call wild, and why do we call it wild? Why is it that humans have a desire to “tame” nature, just like we like to enslave others, conquer and dominate others. Nature does not do that, right? Is there love in nature? Our cities become representative of what we deem as natural. The slums, the desperation for survival, the constant up and down driving, the mechanized sounds of metal against metal, the tall buildings that look offensive when compared to the distant backdrop of the Azusa mountains. All we have is splitting of electrons.
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Six): El Biker - Bikers of South Central L.A.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Poem: Trying to forget you
Trying to forget you
by Armando Ortiz
The last plum blossom has fallen,
joining past events,
in that precipice of forgotten decay.
Soon leaves will be a cicada green,
And we will explore other valleys,
While seeds die and repeat this infinite scene.
When winter returns,
You will have disappeared from my thoughts,
And the last leaf will descend with the frost of night.
If I am unable to eat from your tree,
Then being pushed by the unknown breeze,
will be my final decree
as I unroll my sails and sail away free.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Six): El Biker - Bikers of South Central L.A.
Part 6: El Biker - Bikers of South Central L.A.
By Armando Ortiz
Back when my dad had volunteered us to work at the recently purchased church new people began appearing randomly for a moment or decided to stay for a long while.It seemed that the congregation kept getting bigger and bigger, hence the need to move to a larger locale. Relocating to the new church meant a lot of sacrifices for the congregation that was made up of blue collar workers. Some members would end up moving to other churches after the newly acquired church had been restored to a new glimmering sanctuary because they felt that the congregation was no longer homely. The stained glass windows, which were in fact made of some kind of plastic, now filtered light much clearly and one saw strawberry reds, deep metallic greens, and gold chocolate foil.
During the time that was spent restoring the church there came a new member of the church who dressed like a cowboy, well more really like a stockier, taller, and darker version of Wyatt, one of the main characters of Easy Rider. In the film Peter Fonda was a more refined version of a biker/smuggler, Carlos on the other hand was Central American, and his hair was curly and his shirts seemed a bit tight at the waist. I don’t recall much of the person, though he once said he was from El Salvador. There was this one time, while he was working on the chain link fence that some of my buddies and I approached him. We peppered him with questions about all sorts of things. He wore black cowboy boots and claimed he’d been a biker. For the past five years he’d been riding here and there and everywhere. I didn’t pay much heed to what he said, but I thought the boots were cool, so was his belt. Maybe the question arose because compared to all the members of the church who dressed conservatively with their church etiquette, he stood out.
He kept working on the chain link fence that stretched to the other end of the lot, and then pointed to the bike he rode. “I used to ride around with bikers and we’d go up to the mountains and have barbecues.” The bike was black with some orange lettering on the sides of the gas tank. The two piston motor glistened, reflecting the afternoon sun. The handles were slightly lifted and the back wheel was enamel black. It wasn’t new, but it was clean. The front wheel was chrome, and gave the motorcycle a certain character; a certain aura projected that emanated flawlessness. The church brother certainly had taste. “It’s a Harley-Davidson,” he said, “Though if you ever get a motorcycle get a Honda. Ese bolado’s given me many problems, but it’s all mine.” He seemed out of place in the church and out in the real world, but he was being helpful and doing good work.
We once found him playing the piano inside the church, we asked him what he was playing and he said he was playing Sonata Bach. We asked him if it was his girlfriend, and he said it wasn't a woman but a musical piece by a man that no longer was living, but that one day, if we remembered we’d re-discover his beautiful music. That day he wore a leather vest, over a white shirt. He continued playing on the old wall piano. We just stared at the strange cowboy that had appeared out of nowhere. He’d close his eyes, and his fingers dexterously moved left to right.
“Jose!,” someone called out. Marco, the guy supervising the restoration of the church signaled that our help was needed outside. He got up from the stool and headed towards the entrance to the church. The pack of church kids followed behind. Outside the weather was typical Southern California weather, sunny and warm. Two palm trees were on the curbside of Adams Blvd.
One day we were coming back from playing basketball. The adults had set up a half court in front of the church’s parking lot. We’d been called to go inside and help around. We were carrying some stuff to the pulpit where once again we found him sitting on the piano bench. He was having his lunch, Louisiana Chicken, which he’d brought down the street. He squeezed the ketchup package on his food, topping the fried chicken with the red sauce. I asked him why he ate his chicken with ketchup, “That’s how I like to eat fried chicken,” he replied with a smile, looking straight into my eyes. He was a jack of all trades. I don’t recall much after that and it seems that as he appeared from out of nowhere to help in the rebuilding of the church, once the project was done he disappeared in a snap, merging with traffic, either driving east or west on Adams Boulevard. He probably drove west and saw the sunset before he followed wherever his wandering soul took him.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Aldous Huxley's Crome Yellow and Roberto Bolano's 2666: On Society
Monday, January 23, 2012
Our Relationship with Animals and the Earth
Friday, January 20, 2012
White Rocks: A Poem
White Rocks
By Armando Ortiz
Search and move
Move and search
Search under the rug
And move the couch
What’s going on?
What did I do?
What did she do?
What did we do?
Turn over
And over turn
Turn over the couch
And overturn the books
Dig and fling
Fling and dig
Dig through the pile of laundry clothes
Fling the clean shirts from the drawer
White rock
Rock white
White crystals are lost somewhere
Rocks hidden in cracks, and
Cracks become invisible rocks
Stand sad
Sad stand
We stand confused
Our sad eyes observe
The destruction of our dad
Search and move
Move and search
Do you need help with your search?
If we search with you we will find.
Move! Move out of the way!
I need to move and find my own way.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Five): Plum Trees of L.A.
Part 5: Plum Tree of L.A.
By Armando Ortiz
During this time, I was just in third grade, as mentioned earlier. In the front yard of the duplex where I lived was a plum tree, and every spring there was a blossoming of violet papier-mâché like blossoms. I really didn’t give it much thought back then, to me the tree was all that it was, a tree, but I do recall spending hours playing around its cool shade. Sometimes I would go up and play with my G.I. Joes, other times I would climb up and get lost in the labyrinth of my imagination, thinking of the tree house that could be built on it and of the endless vistas that I could see while resting on the branches.
The fruit that the tree bore was not that tasty; at least that is how I remember the tiny peach/plumbs being. The fruit seemed to never fully ripen and even after they reached the delicate yin yang of yellow and orange they still were not sweet. My mother would cook the peach/plums to caramelize them by mixing water, cinnamon, panela and pieces of platano along with the small fruit. This rustic process made the sour fruit edible and delicious. A few days later, when the tiny peach/plums were ready to eat my mom would let us eat them. The caramelized fruit would stay in the refrigerator for a few days inside a round glass bowl and everything inside would slowly disappear.
Something that did annoy me was the incessant amount of resin that came out the tree. Sometimes while climbing the tree my hands would get smothered by a glob of young amber. The tree trunk had it on its bark, and so did the ends of the tiny fruits, it was as if the tree was always weeping this sticky substance. In the hot summer days I especially loved climbing up the tree and lying on one of the branches pretending to be lost in the jungle, hiding in the cool shade of the dense green foliage. Now the tree is no longer there, I guess a few years after we moved out the owners decided to cut down the tree.
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Four): Third Grade in L.A.
Growing up in Los Angeles (Part Six): El Biker - Bikers of South Central L.A.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Driving through South Central: Sketches of Los Angeles
Driving through South Central L.A.
by Armando Ortiz
He witnessed the palpable urgency in the people passing by. Each street seemed to possess a small shrine on the corner, devoted to the Virgin Mary. The image of her adorned the walls of mom and pop shops, and every exchange of money was accompanied by expressions of gratitude towards the heavens, thanking them for the chance to live one more day. These celestial powers favored those who would rest with a full belly and allowed them to offer gratitude as they strolled in and out of random 99 cent stores, liquor stores, discount fashion stores and auto part stores. This part of the city’s fabric was woven with the working class, pimps, mechanics, kids sporting USC shirts and sweaters, street vendor, city employees, undocumented workers, DVD bootleggers, street women, tamaleros, sellers of pleather belts, punk rockers, rural cowboys, fruit salad peddlers, and street corner evangelists. It blended together into an exotic tapestry reminiscent of a travel journal chronicling a journey through an unknown third-world country. These streets offered anything and everything one could be purchased while driving through them.
If one found themselves running late for an appointment without having eaten, they could purchase a tamal from a sidewalk vendor. The tamalera usually sold cheese tamales with jalapenos, green chili tamales with chicken and spicy red sauce tamales with shredded beef. On cold days, selections of champurado and atole were also available. If one was on their way to pick up a date, they could drive down to the next block, buy a freshly cut bouquet of red roses, and have someone across the street expertly gift wrap a present. In these streets, no one had rest, and everyone worked on New Year’s day.
It all felt surreal, yet it was here that the true Southern California car culture thrived at its peak. This was where motorized movement converged with human movement, creating an unforgettable and distinct experience he had never witnessed before. It was a cosmopolitan scene that heightened all six senses. Every individual, whether actively engaging or merely driving through, played a role in this grand drama unfolding. Exhaust fumes mingles with phone conversations, music blaring banda or hip hop from every speaker, and the hum of passing vehicles. The scene was punctuated by the motorcycle cop’s siren, halting an Asian man driving his BMW right in front of a beauty salon and a fish frying market. Everything seemed to dissolve into an intangible force that the wind uses to transport objects, its destination unknown.
Driving through the streets of South Central transported him to another world, replete with forgotten realities. Every other corner boasted a taco truck, with a patient line of seven customers eagerly awaiting their food. Old car lots were repurposed as outdoor diners where the aroma of freshly grilled chicken or fish permeated the air, detectable from blocks away. People gathered at bus stops, embarked or disembarked from public transportation, and walked away from MTA stations. Everyone surrendered themselves to the prevailing forces, immersing themselves in the hustle and bustle of Los Angeles as they merged with the natural ebb and flow of life, each with their own chosen destinations. So much movement transpired that he struggled to grasp its significance. It reminded him of his childhood trips to the river, where he would plunge beneath the rushing river.
Submerged in the river’s depths, he observed gray granite boulders, bubbles ascending lazily, and settled sediment that remained motionless. The river’s current forcefully pushed his body, guiding his face and eyes towards a singular direction. As a child, he wondered of the consequence of surrendering to the river’s force, but the silent boulders hinted at a painful end. He, too, was driven by the urgency to make this month’s rent. Yet amidst the bustling scene, he realized his insignificance in the grand machine of reality. He was a mere cog caught between many gears that propelled the wheel of time forward. However, dwelling on such thoughts was futile. The wheel was turning, and as long as things moved, wether forward or backward, everything would be fine. Rent could be paid, showers could be taken, and later in the night, he could join his friends for a beer.
The urgency with which people moved and acted was difficult for him to comprehend, but he yearned to capture it all. His life was a constantly changing tableau, where greens transformed into browns and grays metamorphosed into ocean blue. The views from his window had changed so frequently that he became attuned to the different cloud patterns in the sky. He noticed that the sun was less intense in the flatlands compared to the mountains, though that also depended on his current location. The air became drier a thousand miles to the east of Los Angeles, while it remained mild near the coast. Today, though, he found himself driving through South Los Angeles, navigating Central Avenue from north to south and driving east to west on Adams Boulevard, Gage Ave and Florence Avenue, zigzagging his way towards an elusive pot of gold.
Unlike his experiences in Asia, where he had traveled extensively, Los Angeles granted him the freedom to point his vehicle in any direction and drive without being confined to long queues or waiting for the next train. In his city, he had the liberty to go wherever he pleased, as long as his vehicle kept running. He was a part of the greater scene, and integral spoke in the wheel, as nature followed its course like a river overflowing its banks and streaming towards unknown destinations in search of lower ground. These invisible spokes of time devoured everything, yet birthed an infinite number of possibilities. A sense of overwhelming desperation engulfed him, causing a shiver to ripple through his body..
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Xinjiang, China: Heaven's Lake
The hawk continued to screech, and naturally the water kept replicating its movements. I walked up a few feet up the canyon. After a slight turn I found the two planks that stood above the hole. I took a piss, and peered inside the pit. Steam was coming off my piss. On my way back to the yurt where I slept that night I passed other yurts that also had traveling visitors from other parts of China and other parts of the world. The hawk kept making circles over the lake, gliding and gliding. The surface of the contained water veiled a serene calmness to the morning. Inside was dark and majestic. I couldn’t quite tell what was more blue the sky or that natural dam.
Memories, that is what flashed past me as I looked outside the balcony a few years after visiting that place. The weather was cool outside and the cityscape of L.A. was sharp and clear, like it always is after an Autumn rain. Cars passing bye, humming motors and honking horns can be heard. The neighbor’s television blasting the football game through the speakers. I reflected on the past and thought that it all seemed like a dream. Maybe I had been part of an ancient tribe and actually lived beside the lake.